tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-74766706213796917022024-03-05T16:52:17.681-08:00inner dreams and stitched up seamsits different down south...lostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.comBlogger120125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-66852383890147935792013-11-11T14:02:00.001-08:002013-11-11T14:02:34.771-08:00Living and working in LondonAs part of my Occupational Therapy Degree I was given the opportunity to live and work in London! So far it has been a success and I have managed to live here with virtually no qualms. Thanks to my friend Katy's lovely parents I have been able to live in Bexley and commute into my placement in Blackheath- which takes roughly 30 minutes!<br />
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Many people say that living in London is awful, but I think its great!! Maybe I am biased.. I don't know! <br />
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Some of the things I love about living in London so far are:<br />
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1- How many people there are! Think of all of those lives running around, and doing there thing- and all of those people just going at a generally steady pace.. London isn't all hustle and bustle there are sooo many different types of people and virtually everywhere you go you will find a different type! The weird thing is that virtually every area has its own different type of style for example- Blackheath is YUMMY MUMMY central, where as over the river you can find Shoreditch and Hoxton centre of the creative hub of London and HIPSTERS can be found everywhere! Now if you want to see the TOURISTS go to Covent Garden, and Camden attracts music lovers and the punks! There is no such thing as a typical Londoner people- there are many kindsa people here!<br />
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2- The amounts of events on- Its the centre of sociability! The only problem is getting around to seeing it all!! If anything there is too much.. Pace is the key here.. you can't see it all in one day. Art, Culture, Food, Drink you name it London probably does it!!<br />
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3- Transport- If there is one things that isolates us on the south coast that is the transport. Its pretty easy to get anywhere in the country and cheaply, as well as having a brilliant network to get around the city quite reasonably- thats if you are not catching the Tube every day- which thankfully I don't have to do at the moment!<br />
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4- The Green Spaces- As a nature lover it can seem like there is no space in a city- and MANY cities are drastically under planned when it comes to green spaces. London has an abundance of Green if you are willing to look for it. Bexley where I am living has some great spots that I have been running and walking in recently as well as Greenwich just up the road which is a great place for a stroll!<br />
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... I could go on! But the main thing for me is the choice you get here. People can be who they want to be- they say life welcomes allsorts. London has definitely an abundance of allsorts. Allsorts of people, things to do and places to go! It has also surprised me in not being too stressful- I think its just a matter of finding the right borough for youlostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-4709806998778554352012-11-13T15:39:00.000-08:002012-11-13T15:39:18.511-08:00ShineNo star wears a veil,<br />
shine your light onto me<br />
shine your light that is within you<br />
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They say you were born to be this way<br />
that you're not like the others<br />
why have you strayed?<br />
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From my own experience with what I say<br />
Im here to stay<br />
my literal body is the only thing holding me back<br />
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For forever<br />
only til Im here<br />
For now I am with you<br />
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Im sorry I can't be perfect<br />
and sorry I can't be free<br />
Im sorry for the thoughts that I can do no wrong<br />
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Is it always me and not you?<br />
How can I blame your motives?<br />
How can I blame your good intention?<br />
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I can do nothing but say 'I forgive you' to myself<br />
Move on and towards you,<br />
and say thankyou for a chance to learn<br />
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With me smiling<br />
You shine your light on my shadows<br />
say you'll stay with me through my faults<br />
lostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-83751540462086461462012-10-23T12:22:00.000-07:002012-10-23T12:22:25.866-07:00postcards Ive made <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgLExV-WKnCaBe3e3qehKxsvwjjiNa4JJ9fXoa3lGoHJ0kqHuw_MeIXopjRN1T6WYs1g1R05VSXAzxPzsLYtV_WldvqzPz61phlvhgUyqhCbKHge57LaXDw_egTG2vR6dvxOc7vfaNapwA/s1600/039.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left:1em; margin-right:1em"><img border="0" height="240" width="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgLExV-WKnCaBe3e3qehKxsvwjjiNa4JJ9fXoa3lGoHJ0kqHuw_MeIXopjRN1T6WYs1g1R05VSXAzxPzsLYtV_WldvqzPz61phlvhgUyqhCbKHge57LaXDw_egTG2vR6dvxOc7vfaNapwA/s320/039.JPG" /></a></div><br />
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Here are some postcards I made yesterday! They go in the post tomorrow with the intention of brightening somebodys day- I requested that people comment on my facebook account saying if they wanted me to make them a postcard- but I could only make 5... otherwise I would have been there for a while! and it would have cost me alot of money in stamps too :p if u recieve one it would be great for you to comment! (I realise theres more than 5- but I couldnt resist! Let me know what you think xxx<br />
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lostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-62106457507273715932012-10-11T13:17:00.000-07:002012-10-11T13:17:01.264-07:00TimeTime goes so fast as it always goes,<br />
don't we know?<br />
our own hands,<br />
our life long batteries,<br />
ticking,<br />
until the end,<br />
people drift in and out, but stay strong,<br />
in my mind forever<br />
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The wind it moves me,<br />
and blows me where he wants to go,<br />
he never stops,<br />
I don't know if he realises,<br />
like I do,<br />
Down Spanish steps that go on forever,<br />
In the Rome of my mind,<br />
History repeats itself,<br />
In our minds<br />
and the games it plays,<br />
when Im not in this moment,<br />
and in the here and now,<br />
its all we have<br />
<br />
Autumn leaves on the steps<br />
stay strong,<br />
try not to brown at the edges and sludge up,<br />
orange and burgudy,<br />
colours rich and dancing free,<br />
until skelentons<br />
<br />
and we're all trying to find meaning<br />
and we all want a friend<br />
to say hi to<br />
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The precious ticking,<br />
our precious and precarious,<br />
glass face,<br />
and cogs <br />
and wheels<br />
our gift of timelostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-80795733119966230432012-09-02T09:57:00.003-07:002012-09-02T09:57:55.876-07:0012 Hours12 hours by Luke Tonks<br />
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Sitting in the park opposite my home, in the dead of night and staring up at the stars, thinking of home the boys, all the boys I’ve left behind, all the ones I’ve wanted to spend forever with, now barely remember their names, and why this one has to go, and leave me alone, it was supposed to be me, me who leaves, the inevitable closing of the door, the blank stare when the, “why? Let’s give it another go...” comes along. My eyes well up, my lids useless buckets overflowing and staining my face with their salty contents. Its 5 to midnight and I’m not in the least bit tired, the thoughts running through my head won’t allow for tiredness, only for confusion.<br />
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The walls around it speak nothing of what you would normally thing of as a park, more like a space on a plate where there once was a cake, or a bomb site where there was once a row of house’s, shops, life, Eire, but nice enough, the grass scorched from the hot summer beneath me is dry as I lie down with my arms splayed out on the grass. <br />
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“Thought I’d find you here”<br />
He stands at the gate, skinny body, well dressed, dry sense of humour, his voice echoing around the boxed park.<br />
“Hey, you left early without saying goodbye”<br />
“Yeah, mm I know I couldn’t really stand it, all those people. What you doing here?”<br />
“Came to find you, plus I couldn’t really stand it either, Janine, and Mark, and the rest of them where well pissed, you know how it gets? Embarrassing?”<br />
He comes closer and sits on the grass next to me, stokes my hair, and I turn to face him, stare at his face, it seems so unfamiliar now.<br />
“I can’t understand it, I still can’t, you leaving, I never thought it would actually happen”<br />
“Don’t, don’t ruin it for me, I thought you’d be happy for me”<br />
“What?” my hand brushes my face wiping the tears away<br />
“I’m only going to Uni, it’s not like I’ll be gone forever.”<br />
“Always knew this day would come … you know, you’re going to make new friends, and forget about me, forget about all of us, you’ve outgrown us”<br />
“Hey Scott, you’ve had a few to drink, you don’t mean that.”<br />
“No I do, you’re different from us Frankie WE ARE NOT LIKE YOU, I’ll still be here, in 5 years, probably still working in the same café, I can’t be someone that you just see on the holidays, I just can’t, I can’t just slot in when you need me, it doesn’t work like that, I don’t work like that.”<br />
“What? So you’re ending it? You’re such a hypocrite, I never wanted to end it, and deep down you don’t, I know you don’t.”<br />
I don’t say anything, because I know what ever comes out of my mouth will be a lie, because I don’t, I know this man, I reach out and hold him, brush my hands through his blonde dry curls on his head. Feel his warm skin, listen to the sound of his breath on my neck, and it hurts, it hurts because I know, I know deep down that it’s never going to be the same again. I can see it now, all the cute guys he’ll meet, in the first week. Cute, intelligent, interesting, I pale in comparison, I don’t stand a chance.<br />
He pulls away from me and looks at me with his brown eyes, “Don’t do this to yourself”<br />
“What? I don’t feel bad, I just want to enjoy this last night with you, I so don’t want to be the boyfriend at home, you know I don’t want that, I think we should break up, let’s not ruin it, let’s not think bad of each other, or draw it out too long”<br />
“Shit, I never expected that, is this honestly what you want? I love you, you know?”<br />
“Thanks”<br />
“Thanks?”<br />
“Yeah. What times your dad droppin’ you off?”<br />
“Changing the subject?” smiling and gives me a shuv, “If you must know it’s gonna be about 12, you comin’ or what? Or you planning on stayin here all night?”<br />
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He grabs my hand and we walk into the hazy night and the street lights lighting our way like a gothic black and white silent still. The way back I let him lead the way, I rest on his arm, we don’t say a word, the simple understanding we have, and the knowing that this moment is all we have. Suddenly a Blue door stands in front of us, his home.<br />
“I don’t want to go home”<br />
“It’s my dad though; you know he doesn’t let me have boys over.”<br />
I look at him roll my eyes, and bat my lashes.<br />
“Well, I suppose what he don’t know won’t hurt him, I could sneak you in” his smile, again, this is why we got together in the first place, because nothing else matters when I see that smile.<br />
He turns the key on the lock and looks around to me pressing his finger to his lips, so cute, I want to kiss him. We stumble through the door and head quietly up the stairs to his room which lies directly opposite the stairs. He closes the door behind me, and turns to face me, kisses me on the neck the face, his hands running down my back and into my boxers. Me gripping onto him and wanting him so badly, We stumble over to the bed still clutching each other and he falls back onto it, me climbing on top of him and pulling his buttoned shirt over his head, I run my fingers over his chest, wondering if this is the last time, our last time. His skin is hot to the touch and I feel his hard cock press against my thigh which makes me so hot for him. He releases my button from my jeans and pulls them down, I make love to him for what seems like hours, as if time stands still, and then collapse in a heap of sweat and heat, the open window bringing breeze in, as we hold each other’s naked bodies beneath the white cotton sheets.<br />
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Groggy, I look over to the window, light pours through, the morning is silent, beautiful, I lie there thinking about when we first met over 2 years ago, fresh out of school, and the beautiful times we spent together, how inseparable we were, how we never let each other out of our sights, how we never wanted to end up together, and how just 3 month ago we did. All of this a build up to this moment, when we have to leave each other’s side and I know that it can’t go on, I pull myself to the edge of the bed and put my boxers on. Look around the room at the boxes ready to go up later that day, and wipe a tear from my eye. <br />
He stirs and faces me, his eyes, so sexy,<br />
“Morning beautiful”<br />
“It’s 8.30, I have to be at work in an hour, sorry about last night”<br />
“Hey forget about it, it’s going to be a pretty mental day!”<br />
“Let me know how you get on, I’m gonna shoot off before we get too mushy, you know I’m no good at goodbyes, ring me ok?” I stroke his face and push a tear onto the sheet, turn away and put my clothes on. His hand touches my shoulder,<br />
“I’ll miss you”<br />
I touch his hand and face him, I plant my lips on his and feel the moist saliva connect and mix.<br />
“Ring me” I turn and walk out of the door and down the stairs, then straight out onto the street.<br />
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At work I’m a mess, My eyes are puffy, I managed a quick shower back at home, A buzz goes off in my pocket I check my phone, its Frankie, its 5 to 12 just before the lunchtime rush, he must be just getting ready to leave. My thoughts go back to 5 to midnight, 12 hours ago, the box park. I take a breath and read,<br />
Scott, it I could change the course of time I would, I never thought you would do this, I never thought this would change things so much, I love you, and I’ll be thinking of you in this 5 hour car journey listening to my dad’s music. I understand BUT RIGHT NOW I WISH U WERE HERE. Don’t change, I love you always, Frankie x<br />
A tear drops on the phone. I close my eyes briefly, look away from the text and a customer walks through the door.<br />
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x Hope you enjoyed please feel free to live feedback xxxx<br />
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lostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-46465921856844141582012-07-01T10:43:00.002-07:002012-07-01T10:45:38.497-07:00Tragic PoemSo currently Im sitting in a room looking out of a window at a Gorgeous view and thinking- WOW! This is my last week here in this home I have called home for the last 9 months! People living in Brighton are an odd bunch of people, we seem to come here running away from one thing or another, searching for ourselves (constantly) which is (constantly) changing from day to day... We are always on the move even in this city, our friends change, fitness reshemes, homes, clothes, and beliefs are always being shaken up, in fear that one day we might wake up and say- O I do wish I went to see that band/ ate more healthly/ lived in that side of town...<br />
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So thinking about this I wrote a poem.. Please let me know what you think.. Ciao xx<br />
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Its not that someone elsewhere that is unhappy,<br />
Leaving me frightfully cool,<br />
Happilly blissed out with my Ice cold Soya Latte, <br />
Restoring the Balance<br />
Everywhere has its thing,<br />
We are all searching for the same in different ways,<br />
look down to the humdrum, a meloncholic, "Thank God its not me"<br />
Between the next yoga, and life modelling class, and detox juice fast,<br />
Your unbound and boundless, when you can leave at anytime, without guilt and without a note to the ones who are left,<br />
is this what we're left with?<br />
Nothing?<br />
Only a storage crate off Lewes road, <br />
full of the things you have collected on this wacky ride<br />
When everyone is popping out kids where will you be?<br />
Searching the Friday ad for your next house share, and starting over?<br />
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Unintentional intentions keep your mind body and spirit in check,<br />
and your chakras aligned for the next house party,<br />
Change Sapping your energy,<br />
The neverending rearrange of your friends you would have done anything for,<br />
wish they would have/could have stuck around, like your mates back home,<br />
The Humdrum you see doesnt make you too blue, Cus at least you have reliability to get you through<br />
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xxlostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com2Brighton, The City of Brighton and Hove, UK50.82253 -0.13716350.742283 -0.2950915 50.902777 0.020765499999999992tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-47678671414402425372010-12-01T14:07:00.001-08:002010-12-01T15:10:25.452-08:00World AIDS dayHello fellow blog buddies! Well today is World Aids day, and I thought Id take the time to put a post out to remember all those people with HIV and AIDS. Today I put a status up on Facebook to remember all those who have died and are living with HIV. One of my friends replied also highlighting the stigma attached to having HIV, today someone lives in fear of telling those close to them, including their employees, for fear of judgement and discrimination. <br /><br />Early diagnosis of this illness, with the right treatment, can mean a healthy life for people with this illness, its not the same as in the 1980's and the stigma, at least in this country is no where near as bad as what it was. It also brings to light the millions who die of inaccurate information and fear, if people are told that wearing a condom is a sin- even in this day and age, are they the ones to blame?<br /><br />It is up to us all, and all of our responsibilities to to encourage equality for people living with HIV, having an illness, doesn't mean that you are of no use to society. Although it should be everybody's choice to keep a secret, they shouldn't be fearful of the consequences of not. So people wear your wear ribbons with pride, and speak for equality for all.<br /><br />If you are around in Brighton on the 15th December, there is an <a href="http://www.network.zhooshbrighton.co.uk/events/100-artists-for-world-aids-day">exhibit for 100 artists for World AIDS Day </a>at the Phoenix Gallery and help to raise money for the <a href="http://www.tht.org.uk/">Terrance Higgins trust</a> an AIDS charity who's goal is to improve sexual health- Maybe Ill see you there ;) Love to all. Lukelostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-86089542827871557102010-12-01T14:07:00.000-08:002010-12-01T14:07:18.919-08:00100 Artists for World Aids Day - Brighton 2010<iframe width="425" height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/Bk4OgsBC9-w?fs=1" frameborder="0"></iframe><br /><br />Flyer for 100 artists for World aids daylostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-69588221041258642992010-11-29T05:51:00.000-08:002010-11-29T06:10:51.778-08:00Community Garden!!Brilliant! We might just get a community garden!! This is good news! Why? because, it means learning for the community, the joy and fun of getting involved mucking in and getting our hands dirty!! The proposed site will be in Queens park, a fabulous place at the top of Hanover in Brighton. Currently we are going through all the checks, to make sure its all OK to go ahead, applying for grants, and getting excited in the process. It also means the possibility of marking off one more of my to do list!! Grow my own food, apart from it will be a few of us!! yeah!! its gonna be ace, fingers crossed for us that we get it!! People interested in the project, and wanting to get involved, in creating potential workshops, or just generally mucking in should email mei-wah, weimah@hotmail.com<br /><br />Check out the pics:<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtObr7EjpNz47FTj_iwvfOWogeUkiUStK-XmhOppUY-M6189oP165tmitsoZC6ddihrnCUTjPmxFmPLft6IOy2bP0qOMnrm6Vk64o7OiIIjKoQiLyH4hG2_rfpWQhANRRx9-ByzG__4PY/s1600/040.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtObr7EjpNz47FTj_iwvfOWogeUkiUStK-XmhOppUY-M6189oP165tmitsoZC6ddihrnCUTjPmxFmPLft6IOy2bP0qOMnrm6Vk64o7OiIIjKoQiLyH4hG2_rfpWQhANRRx9-ByzG__4PY/s320/040.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5544973074703350386" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1WYPmmEgIunyGSpMVA8lZstoOcHOSI3NQq_49rkhpDs2MHEImgh0CBCTYP3Bci9jLeu9ZuQckDipJjiioU14k40yaunVrOOLo4vRK8SNmcTSQ80rLT0QqjDYICNh6bON2Shqd3yocBJw/s1600/039.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1WYPmmEgIunyGSpMVA8lZstoOcHOSI3NQq_49rkhpDs2MHEImgh0CBCTYP3Bci9jLeu9ZuQckDipJjiioU14k40yaunVrOOLo4vRK8SNmcTSQ80rLT0QqjDYICNh6bON2Shqd3yocBJw/s320/039.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5544973069354786850" /></a>lostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-60107259259630866452010-11-27T16:31:00.000-08:002010-11-27T16:54:56.966-08:00why I blogWhy did I start blogging? Well ever the one to ramble on, and loving writing my own stuff, and wanting to keep the world updated with my antics also. I decided to go for it, and make a blog. My blog has totally been a journey, Ive used it to review to post things up and also tread that fine line of hanging out my dirty washing in public... always a funny adventure, Ive used it to grow up, and also I hope to inspire others.<br /><br />Things change though the same as people do, Ive been on and off 20 something bloggers, promoting my blog, but I love to know the feeling that people <strong>I know </strong>are reading my blog, it is a great feeling that. Yeah I might not be the most consistent blogger out there but I do love it. Its great random strangers reading my blog, but it must be quite boring if you don't know the person, and I know I want this blog to be about lots of things- not just one thing, although I'm sometimes not sure what threads it all together, that's me. Are we all not like that? The answers probably no and that is what makes the blogging community so brilliant and interesting, we are all so different.<br /><br />I put a post up a few months ago on 20sb regarding why people stat blogging, there was such a varied response. It seems that there was alot of people just wanting to vent themselves and have a place to feel heard! Writing for me is so theraputic, theres no judgement you can just keep going, not worrying what the other person might think, but I also don't want to be just posting "my all" up here- Ill leave that for my diary!! (or should I call it verbal-diary-a)<br /><br />Anyway, leave a comment or funny response should you be inclined to do so below, xxxlostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-23496777983291305132010-11-25T15:12:00.000-08:002010-11-25T15:50:43.203-08:00CUTS<strong>What should we think as what we know and love falls around us?</strong><br /><br />fact: Our world is changing, the shit has finally hit the fan. In light of the recent protests across the UK, over well... everything! But being a student I can definitely understand more whats going on from that side of the dice. We are now going to be forced to pay excessive fees to go to to university, a rite that should not be denied to us. I wouldn't be able to go to university if it wasn't for the subsidise from the government, I mean really, I don't want to be in debt for the rest of my life.<br /><br />We are paying for the debts of our past generations, proof that capitalism left uncapped isn't working, the fact that our whole banking system is just about had it, and the state has had to take control of it, a state that allows the likes of Vodaphone to get away with taxes (taxes that we all have to pay) and the bankers still getting their juicy bonuses, whilst the rest of us get dealt this?? <br /><br />What makes it worse is that we are led to believe this is a good thing, "its for the best" hummm I don't think so. By the time I'm ready to retire I'm not sure they'll even be such a thing, its all so very Orwellian!!<br /><br />Soo what are the other options? Well we can either carry on the way we are, making more cuts and dragging this dead horse through the market, or we can actually start to see this for what it is, and change the system. Uncapped growth is crazy and its putting all our futures and future generations at stake both financially and environmentally. Its all very well making cuts, but were does it end, and who pays the price??<br /><br />I was in Brighton yesterday for the student marches and I was abit worried, I even heard a Police man say that they were under prepared for the protest- really? I'm shocked!! I mean it was a publicised event, why were they not prepared? In London a Police van was hijacked, that was left unattended, the police never went to get it, again suspect. I believe our civil liberties are under threat at the moment, if Police can sort out football riots whats stopping them sorting this out? Ill leave you to figure that one out.. Protesters are beginning to be given a bad name, Ive lost count how many face book updates with people moaning about protesters, the news and media are also running riot with it at the moment. I hope people see that it is their right and they should stand up and say, enough is enough, this government needs to live up to their promises. Its why we voted (well not me exactly) them in the first place, and now, we are being lied and manipulated against. <br /><br />So people, find your own voice, and shout, this is why we pay taxes, we don't pay this much tax to get dealt this hand. It is not what we deserve. <br /><br />Please leave a comment below telling me your thoughts and views, even if it is aginst mine, Id love to hear from you!lostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-48690833988338744012010-11-21T14:34:00.001-08:002010-11-22T15:14:52.068-08:00CordobaIm back!! The crazy fantastic time its been.... Although short it was certainly eventful...<br /><br />My time started at 3am in the morning, me having to wake up to get my plane, thetrain was full of drunken louts, not something I wanted at that time in the morning I can tell you- but hey! To be fair I did do ALOT of waiting around and ALOT of traveling! But it was worth it. 10 hours later I arrived in Cordoba- a beautiful city in Analucia and the home of my friend Joel! We went for a lovely walk along the river had Morrocan spiced tea, and some lovely soup- curtoisy of Joel, had a fantastic afternoon all in all, meeting his flatmats and relaxing on the sunterrace (with his lovely dog too...awww)<br /><br />I had to have a sleep too- we had a long night ahead of us!! I had a fantastico night!! We danced until the early hours- met loads of people. Exept when I left the club, minus my friend- whom I couldnt find, minus my coat, and my sobriety! OMG, i WAS SO DRUNK!! I couldnt ring my friend either and couldnt remember where he lived, in the end I ended up geting in a taxi and somehow thinking it would be a good idea to sleep in the train station... what was I thinking!>? OMG i WAS IN A PICKLE.. and considering I didn't have a coat either, I had to stay in cafes drinking expensive coffee and sleeping, how grim!! In the morning, I managed to buy a hoody, and catch a bus into the centre of Cordoba, find my friend (somehow I managed to remember where he lived!!) I gave him a good telling off for going missing nd leaving me I can tell you!<br /><br />Needless to say it was all good in the end, we went to the Mesquita- a impressive mosque with a church in the middle- take that Osama!! Well on a serious note, to be fair it was abit weird! it was kind of like abit strange that they did it, I'm not religious, but I would recommend a trip just to see it, Cordoba historic centre is UNESCO world heritage site, so you kind of get the picture when I say, GO!! <br /><br />I had to go back to Malaga though at 5pm, I somehow managed to loose my ticket, but Joel fort my battles and got me on the coach, I was soo tierd though I went straight to my room and to bed.. no going out, despite the opportunity for a pub crawl! The next morning I woke up, and found out that one of the guys from the pub crawl went missing and ended up in hospital after being beaten up in an allyway!! This could have been me, it really hit home, kind of how stupid and under prepared Id been on the whole trip, you cant rely on people to look after you people- you have to have back up plans!! <br /><br />Hey though a lesson learned is better than being robbed huh? I loved Cordoba, despite the rain, I want to go back now.. maybe in the summer though... catch up soon xxxlostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-88146573568840524642010-11-15T12:50:00.000-08:002010-11-15T13:18:39.921-08:00Im sorry!!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYO88EIO6a4Wfs6N6M0KUAEQ1IyZ6VMXM71OfINYQWQsOdmSZqQ60qk2iFWob4McmMoc0HQhLIM5ubDm05JbZ73Img0kXqkvvgV4thExz4ig27zTKq8Aiz4T4O9DoWhDBBAVy0qGO-bVU/s1600/164.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYO88EIO6a4Wfs6N6M0KUAEQ1IyZ6VMXM71OfINYQWQsOdmSZqQ60qk2iFWob4McmMoc0HQhLIM5ubDm05JbZ73Img0kXqkvvgV4thExz4ig27zTKq8Aiz4T4O9DoWhDBBAVy0qGO-bVU/s320/164.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5539888055129567426" /></a><br />Soo sorry for the lack of posts in the last week and a half- believe me Ive felt guilty everyday for it! What with my jetsetter life style its hard to keep up (he says with a tongue in cheek! Alls well here, am still settling into my new place. Ive been ill, went out and had a groovy time- check out my-single-self!! Im quite excited to be going to Cordoba on Friday- Omg- am I!!! Bonfire night was also brilliant! and Ive now found a Latin dance class at my gym- with possibly the hottest latin dancer ever- although I do need to go to my gym more!! Ive got loads to write about any way.. heres some photos of my current work for uni that Im doing at the moment.. they are entitled, "kitch dolls" Basically Im going to be performing a short film, with random craziness- It will only be a short film, but its a start huh? and it will be one to mark off my list too!! Leave a comment and tell me what you think, Im also changing the Interesting things at the top there so check it out! please feel free to leave a comment or tell me off for not writing anything!... xxxx<br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhnubQXcSn3usN1ufjtTiMdQcOHWkWjkGnSmbvwHsvCyvZLphL8e0_Gk_RR6wMK9taca1Hl61xvp0g8Z39x6i6PEXAeFKWuFvuy6GguQ-fziHNKZiPVzZ69-Kwr0kBxc7Nt5VHh2X2e4zs/s1600/157.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhnubQXcSn3usN1ufjtTiMdQcOHWkWjkGnSmbvwHsvCyvZLphL8e0_Gk_RR6wMK9taca1Hl61xvp0g8Z39x6i6PEXAeFKWuFvuy6GguQ-fziHNKZiPVzZ69-Kwr0kBxc7Nt5VHh2X2e4zs/s320/157.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5539888074437223282" /></a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgYL57NFOe90xR1dRfwBAkTqbAPL9AKyFz6ibW9W4aHTacoEAcqXF8ySzOq33fNOGQl506Js6Kur8MEOzgdGXGacBUC4rfnJmihvyFA3AmFNXPad9bevmZhmkU8sFXXrW874ap8fDxtok4/s1600/158.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgYL57NFOe90xR1dRfwBAkTqbAPL9AKyFz6ibW9W4aHTacoEAcqXF8ySzOq33fNOGQl506Js6Kur8MEOzgdGXGacBUC4rfnJmihvyFA3AmFNXPad9bevmZhmkU8sFXXrW874ap8fDxtok4/s320/158.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5539888061179148658" /></a>lostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-51303245599847731652010-10-31T13:21:00.000-07:002010-10-31T13:51:26.455-07:00Happy Halloween<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgd10Ll-XANvolr0jQb1HxOY-P8jpH3JIuXhBvdZa7bVV0gAvyHpvERNmOQnEzO2bgjFpHkhAhQ8c-3gVP5AWJw7nguXdCU0puK0mSSFyRjT04ozCFQby6okh22GXM2Vnr5Im9v8JuDF4k/s1600/happy-halloween.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 241px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgd10Ll-XANvolr0jQb1HxOY-P8jpH3JIuXhBvdZa7bVV0gAvyHpvERNmOQnEzO2bgjFpHkhAhQ8c-3gVP5AWJw7nguXdCU0puK0mSSFyRjT04ozCFQby6okh22GXM2Vnr5Im9v8JuDF4k/s320/happy-halloween.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5534315256740220514" /></a><br />Happy Halloween readers, its official tomorrow is November, the nights are getting shorter by the day.. This week has had me all over this country it has been amazing to visit Birmingham and see all my friends, today it is soo nice to be relaxing at home however, sometimes I just need time to myself, recharge, before I go charging off again.<br /><br />Last night was <a href="http://www.whitenightnuitblanche.com/brighton/">White Night</a> here in Brighton, an arts festival, with crazy visual happenings going on all round the city, I spent the majority of the night relaxing and catching up with friends down at ><a href="http://compartment.org.uk/">compARTment</a> , an arts collective that have taken over derilict space in Brightons Open Market, and are all working together to make Brighton the ever fun place it is to live, the great thing about it though is that it had a really community feel to it, which I love and thrive upon,with Live music, an outdoor cinema space, food, wine, theatre, free screenprinting, glassmaking workshops and so much more. Brilliant.<br /><br />I was working however the next day so I was on my best behavior I can promise you.. What did anyone else get upto?<br /><br />Im also having abit of trouble with public transport of late... Im loosing tickets left right and centre (In Birmingham I lost my card and ended up having to buy another ticket- bummer)and today I even managed to get on the wrong train and end up at the airport.. which would have been funny was I not already late with my phone not waking me up.. technology.. who ever heard of an automaticaly updating phone for daylight saving?.. its just too advanced for me ;P and for that matter why do we even have daylight saving? Needless to say my supervisor, being much more dedicated to Waterstones than me was not pleased in the slightest, I felt so bad... but I also just wanted my bed. hehe<br /><br />Anyway Im off to carve myself a pumpkin!! Happy halloween readers.. speak to you soon!!lostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-1329253963702458692010-10-29T15:42:00.000-07:002010-10-29T15:44:04.911-07:00127 HOURS - Full Length Official Trailer HD<object style="background-image:url(http://i4.ytimg.com/vi/OlhLOWTnVoQ/hqdefault.jpg)" width="480" height="295"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/OlhLOWTnVoQ?fs=1&hl=en_GB"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/OlhLOWTnVoQ?fs=1&hl=en_GB" width="480" height="295" allowScriptAccess="never" allowFullScreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object><br /><br />This film looks amazing, I absolutely love Danny Boyle, and cant wait to see it!! Also James Franco is my new No1 hottie!! I love him in Eat pray Love too!!lostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-68388255968663277802010-10-27T09:04:00.000-07:002010-10-27T09:25:24.203-07:00creative residencyWell its been a crazy few days, I've just got back from the puppet residency in Chatham near London where I've been since sunday, I've had a fantastic time literally in the old boat docks, surrounded by history. What I most enjoyed about it was everybody's ability to really work together. We saw the puppets grow from nothing in to something quite amazing, and I even had to leave early! By the end of tuesday, we had all achieved making the skeleton structure, were starting to create the skin and was really moving forward. <br />What was really hilarious about it all was the production line quality of it. We managed to make 5 puppets that really were starting to look brilliant. For people interested in this project please check out kinetica and same skys website and tell me what you think.<br />All of this is culminating for 2012 where our hub (one of 5) the environment will be hosting a festival called 12volts in sussex to encourage young people to the imaginatively about sustainability and the environment.<br />I can't wait to see the videos of them all moving and finished- and know that I was part of it all and helped make it happen! Big love to everyone involved and will post the pictures very soon for you all to have a look at! And I myself feel so grateful to be inspired in such an amazing and life changing project. Feel free to leave a comment Xx lukelostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-8480309340220593852010-10-23T16:36:00.000-07:002010-10-23T16:47:22.800-07:00top 3 websites3 websites that have changed my life!<br /><br />1- www.postcrossing.com<br /><br />I love receiving mail, but all I ever get is bank statements, this project of sending random postcards across the world, and receiving random postcards, has made my postbox extraordinarily happy!<br /><br />2- www.facebook.com<br /><br />Of course the Love me or hate me facebook site! Wow.. fancy being nosey? we all do.. this website is fantastic, upload all your photos, comment, and stay in touch, reconnect, and update each other, with friends that you may have thought were gone from your life forever.<br /><br />3- www.couchsurfing.com<br /><br />Fantastic website that completely changed my year this year. It had me opening my front doors to strangers, for a free place to stay, and I in turn had a free place to stay whilst traveling this summer. I completely recommend this website for anyone with an open heart, and an open mind.<br /><br />Whats your top 3?? remember it can be anything! Leave a comment below, and check these websites out!lostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-41466408770147874582010-10-22T08:58:00.000-07:002010-10-23T16:25:20.025-07:00Charlie.... you look like you have just seen a ghost...Well I did it!! I went to see Charlie st. Cloud, with the heart throb that is- Zac Effron!! Wow, almost every screen was like an OGASAM for me- ESPECIALLY when he took his top off!! wow!! he is some hunk!! My friend who I was with didnt think too much of it, but I loved it- if you loved the series the Ghost whisperer (and possibly twilight fans too) you will love this film!! At one point in the film a couple even walked out!! and it was in this kind of like cupboard in the back rather than a big screen with a 5.40pm showing for the evening... well I think Zac deserves more than that!!- quite funny really though... Also the place where it is shot is absolutely beautiful! Beware though if you dont like cheesey movies steer clear- this one tops them all!!! <br /><br />Last weekend was also a bit of a crazy one with my mom and her gang down from Birmingham, I showed them my new place and showed them the sights (well the local pubs) around here!! we also went to see some live music at a crazy Lovely place in the North Laine! All my friends were out in force too which was great, cuz atm I need a good ol' cheer up!! :) This week has been a chilled one, Ive catched up on sleep, and booked a ticket to go and see a friend in Andaucia,(Cordoba to be exact) which Im sooo excited for next month!! that is deffinetly going to be a good trip and one to mark off my list (see 20 things to do b4 Im 30).. well almost.. I still have to go and see my friend eli at some point in the fabulous Barcelona!! Obviously I miss both of them here in Brighton, but its great knowing you have lovely friends to visit in hot places...<br /><br />Im also going to be volunteering next week to in London to help make a giant puppet- I cant wait for that one! Ill keep you posted with photos and gossip from the up and coming week!! well catch up soon.. Luke xxlostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-83830837623654870942010-10-21T08:24:00.000-07:002010-10-21T08:31:10.660-07:00yoko loco?I think I know what my next essay is going to be about- the lovely yoko ono! She is some woman! Here's a quote I liked from her-<br />Water talk-<br />You are water<br />I'm water<br />We're all water in different containers<br />Someday we'll evaporate together<br />But even after the water is gone<br />Well probably point to the containers and say,<br />"That's me there, that one"<br />We're container minders<br /><br />In a word- genius!lostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-57301808346865967372010-10-17T13:50:00.000-07:002010-10-17T14:49:20.183-07:00Our views on sex..<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgr0OsmjB18HPTJzfjTeMn6CgJmp5DZSc4Ks79g1bc6iwxOpjkXQASDkt85a2F1CA2-xccY3qdo2ehIeBjL2luWOTd0Ecj0I-Lsx94TPMxVqYhRNQ38mXlWn5GSalYYtUjB84i3pCiyVzQ/s1600/22-kama-sutra-carvings-at-khajuraho.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgr0OsmjB18HPTJzfjTeMn6CgJmp5DZSc4Ks79g1bc6iwxOpjkXQASDkt85a2F1CA2-xccY3qdo2ehIeBjL2luWOTd0Ecj0I-Lsx94TPMxVqYhRNQ38mXlWn5GSalYYtUjB84i3pCiyVzQ/s320/22-kama-sutra-carvings-at-khajuraho.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5529135194536246658" /></a><br />As this blogs theme begins to get more apparent, in exposing honestly about my life, reflections, and opinions. Writing this blog has also been a tool for change in for reflecting on MY life, and I hope to inspire different ideas in others, even if you don't necessarily agree with what I have to say.<br /><br />This is a post Ive been meaning to write for a while and now I feel ready to share my opinions on this subject. Becoming single again is weird enough, but we are constantly bombarded with sex everyday, its used to sell products, the clothes we wear, lifestyles, it influences our decisions all the time. Theres now an array of films, Sex and the city, Desperate house wives etc. that show that <strong>women also have sex drives too</strong>,(gasp) and have allowed our generation to speak about sex more openly and honestly, not just for men in pool halls and gym changing rooms. After reading <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Feuchtgebiete">Wetlands by Charlotte Roche </a>earlier tis year, it really touched me and made me think about my views on sex sexuality and the things that I consider a taboo. But also essentially our primal nature and desire for sex.<br /><br />Growing up going to a Catholic school I certainly know how it feels to be sexually repressed. It seems like for some of us, it is still such a taboo. Although we hear the S-word everywhere nowadays, I know I can sometimes feel crude talking about it.<br /><br />The past few years for me has been a time when I can say I have been experimental in my sex life, being in a relationship sometimes does that for you and sharing and experimenting together with someone you trust can be so fulfilling. My views of sexuality are changing...<br /><br />I was reading a <a href="http://nsteven.blogspot.com/2010/08/man-strual-cycle.html">post</a> recently about the male menstruation cycle.. theres certain times of the mont when all you can think about and all you want to do is ave sex. Yes we can have sexually active lives, but where do we draw the line? I want an active sex life, but sex for me is more than just about a fuck, sure its great at the time, but I feel even greater when its more, because for me its about sharing something special and intimate with another. <br /><br />The urge to control our sex drives can sometimes seem like an inner tug of war.. especially if you have a high sex drive. But we should all be more honest and talk about sex more, its part of our lives and something we think about all the time, shouldn't we be celebrating our sexuality? <br /><br />I love earth religions like paganism, which acceptors and celebrates sexuality in all its forms. Alot of tribal cultures around the world celebrated sexuality and didn't she away from it, until Christianity came and told them they should be ashamed of there sexualities. I went a few years ago to the <a href="http://www.adventuresofagoodman.com/blog/2009/01/30/sexy-architecture-and-a-possible-scam-at-khajuraho/">temples of the karmasutra in India</a>- now that's a country that respects sex- anyone that can prolong sex for hours at a time certainly gets my hats off. <br /><br />What are your taboos? Do you feel comfortable about talking about sex, or do you feel its just going too far? or have you recently read something to change your mind? Leave me a comment telling me your views on the subject below...<br />thanx xxxlostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-88245619732585956822010-10-15T07:06:00.000-07:002010-10-15T07:41:54.543-07:00Frieze.. put your hands in the airBlogs away!!! I almost never got time to write this post what with my mom and friends coming down, lack of computer at my new house etc. But there we go..<br /><br />Yesterday I went to the Frieze Art fair in London Regency park.. I was very very impressed. What I love about London is the sheer diversity of people here, different skin colours and tones from all over the world, faces, personalities, body's, and the fashion here, its all so diverse and so hard to label a "Londoner" because "Londoners" are international people. Now Frieze is a totally different kettle of fish, it makes art as big business, theres people here from all over the world, showcasing both international art and international galleries. Theres a huge sculpture park to see- for free!! but you have to pay to see the art within. <br /><br />As someone who at this moment would consider myself an artist, but who doesn't really connect with that world, of art as big business, I still took alot out of it going, its £15 to get in and is open for the rest of the weekend, if you get a chance pop up and have a look... its definitely worth the trouble. You will get to feel, whats "Hot" in Fine Art at the moment, and spend an few hours doing something you love.. heres some pics from my travels:<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQ448FhUVGa5iEUEGrjRefeuKpS96MuS7e38UNdvOcLGrWq-_ndgx9fRCi2OeZV5XXflHtsZChxH6Yc3kmX6IpyoiVfwEDo_g17ZxHItQi26MFRDA2SBIgUxsaSEwYYIK3yYh2z6c4n0g/s1600/Picture+053.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQ448FhUVGa5iEUEGrjRefeuKpS96MuS7e38UNdvOcLGrWq-_ndgx9fRCi2OeZV5XXflHtsZChxH6Yc3kmX6IpyoiVfwEDo_g17ZxHItQi26MFRDA2SBIgUxsaSEwYYIK3yYh2z6c4n0g/s320/Picture+053.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528282020500705186" /></a><br /><br />The Art walks around<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjdrvniPZYX1qA3gE18J8U3GipCJUQONoSvF44F0RdS1T_pXKLcysTlA6N8yU0qe21qmis8_SH0XMDbgNkjNiELoukxp5UwuGEZZo-2WGwO-uVDvaS_9Z5iG3FYbmz_Ot1ezvXLfAakk8A/s1600/Picture+019.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjdrvniPZYX1qA3gE18J8U3GipCJUQONoSvF44F0RdS1T_pXKLcysTlA6N8yU0qe21qmis8_SH0XMDbgNkjNiELoukxp5UwuGEZZo-2WGwO-uVDvaS_9Z5iG3FYbmz_Ot1ezvXLfAakk8A/s320/Picture+019.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528282019536891442" /></a><br /><br />Modern Art is Rubbish- and also burbs and moves..<br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhkuaMLvaIHkTVfB4SaIA49doUmuy526sDTO1pyCLWbjOdmiCy_74FuL_6tTMVjIgHbzxhYj7_2ihxXpStmdUjWcdwiMKUdrlb8rdrau4NntKrzpNnJytZNBASdAUjDoFiyaQ-O3ZnnU9I/s1600/Picture+050.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhkuaMLvaIHkTVfB4SaIA49doUmuy526sDTO1pyCLWbjOdmiCy_74FuL_6tTMVjIgHbzxhYj7_2ihxXpStmdUjWcdwiMKUdrlb8rdrau4NntKrzpNnJytZNBASdAUjDoFiyaQ-O3ZnnU9I/s320/Picture+050.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528282012831084658" /></a><br /><br /><br />Fags for nothing<br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhrxAIroeg4gkFe2agEpPKnU_OQWOm03EazCW5VPmxkafLnHd0LGwVwpx77QFGa6PX1z2EIJ60XISGzKoQWpADSZrS47QBuitYzdAX3SO3thQg5MPsoQe-ntmlRDrmwQFhEZVtfjm0Zwto/s1600/Picture+024.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhrxAIroeg4gkFe2agEpPKnU_OQWOm03EazCW5VPmxkafLnHd0LGwVwpx77QFGa6PX1z2EIJ60XISGzKoQWpADSZrS47QBuitYzdAX3SO3thQg5MPsoQe-ntmlRDrmwQFhEZVtfjm0Zwto/s320/Picture+024.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528282008721174482" /></a><br /> <br />I am the egg manlostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-10070303100380056252010-10-13T13:35:00.000-07:002010-10-13T13:56:12.953-07:00The 20 something bucket listHi! My move went well, Although I'm currently sleeping on a blowup mattress that when I wake up I seem to be lying on the floor... lets just say its not a very good 1 ey? I just went to the gym and did my first Hip Hop dance class too!! It was soo good, even if the moves were little fast for me to keep up with.<br /><br />Also, its time to CELLLLEBRATTTE CELEBRATING THE FACT Ive actually past the 100 post mark, what does this mean??? does this mean Im a "serious blogger?? errr maybe...<br /><br />Well after looking at 20sb.net website a website for 20 something bloggers, people are always posting crazy tasks for each other.. one of which was 20 things to do before Im 30.. sooo here I go..<br /><br />1- Go on a poetry course and start writing<br /><br />2- Learn a language<br /><br />3- Volunteer at an animal sanctuary<br /><br />4- Study further after my course to become an Art Therapist<br /><br />5- Go back to New york<br /><br />6- Travel around America, taking in...<br />.The Grand Canyon<br />.The Mardi Gras in New Orleans<br />.See traditional blues in the Deep south<br /><br />7-Tour Southern Africa and trek Kilimanjaro<br /><br />8- Visit Australia and see my friends<br /><br />9- Exhibit my work at a gallery<br /><br />10- Buy a caravan and live in it<br /><br />11- Make a film<br /><br />12- Go on an activist training course with Greenpeace<br /><br />13- Own a dog<br /><br />14- Grow my own food<br /><br />15- Visit the Edinburgh fringe festival<br /><br />16- See Finland in the snow, including the northern lights<br /><br />17- Volunteer for the Samaritans<br /><br />18- Visit Canada and see Natalie<br /><br />19- Visit Spain and visit my friends there<br /><br />20- Create a website for my art.<br /><br />I will make a separate page for these too, and endeavour to make them happen... I love having ambitions for things... even if they don't always happen....<br /><br />If you have made a similar list or feel inspired to do so.. leave a comment or a link to your page below....lostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-24894498747976671472010-10-12T09:55:00.000-07:002010-10-12T10:14:44.428-07:003 thingsI'm moving today. currently I'm sitting on the floor on my lap top with boxes lying around me waiting for help to arrive and take me to my new house. Although its excited, it seems that this time has been abit of a build up, a road that hasn't been exactly easy.<br /><br />I absolutely love change but I also tend to avoid those big life changing decisions until I have no other choice but to do them. When faced with huge change it seems that there is also the potential for new growth, spiritually, and mentally, that I for one am not ashamed to admit I'm afraid of. A friend of mine has a theory of pebble rock boulder, that life has a way of guiding you, and giving you hints along the way, some hints don't go away, turn into rocks ie. big hints and eventually turn into boulders, where you have no choice, to in my case move.<br /><br />Im afraid because...<br />1* Financially its going to cost me more money.<br />2* Im scared of the change of my life, my life becoming unpredictable<br />3* Being single<br /><br />...well I hope this is normal anyway, surely we've all went through big changes at some stage?<br /><br />Leave a comment telling me when you was faced with a big life changing decision you had to make below........lostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-57714217087114834722010-10-11T13:12:00.000-07:002010-10-11T13:12:36.593-07:00Charlie St. Cloud Official Trailer (HD) - Zac Efron<object style="background-image:url(http://i2.ytimg.com/vi/MzgOvvMi8Lg/hqdefault.jpg)" width="480" height="295"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/MzgOvvMi8Lg?fs=1&hl=en_GB"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/MzgOvvMi8Lg?fs=1&hl=en_GB" width="480" height="295" allowScriptAccess="never" allowFullScreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object>lostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7476670621379691702.post-28814337480407852662010-10-11T12:25:00.000-07:002010-10-11T13:19:37.854-07:00Eat, pray, love<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEyK9zLQscPVpJFq4hJNTTEZzYxB_ZcBPU8mOqp3Xb99-Esm0hS9VTGr5kUdTzG_p1VyhkOghmJxSJvn3l6Npat0Gd7V2d6l18GR6rZhIW8TQ8PJapvJOSEnceINLY17JbOHRRdbB13iE/s1600/eat.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 216px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEyK9zLQscPVpJFq4hJNTTEZzYxB_ZcBPU8mOqp3Xb99-Esm0hS9VTGr5kUdTzG_p1VyhkOghmJxSJvn3l6Npat0Gd7V2d6l18GR6rZhIW8TQ8PJapvJOSEnceINLY17JbOHRRdbB13iE/s320/eat.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5526885104671215058" /></a><br />Yesterday I went to see the resent "Eat, Pray, Love" I was hoping on going with someone other than myself, but it seemed that people were otherwise engaged so I was destined to go on my own. A few things to note before you watch this movie...<br /><br />* Not everyone will like this movie.. why.. some people may feel it abit sappy, a girl trying to "find" herself after a divorce<br />* You may want to go traveling after seeing this movie<br />* This film will have you laughing, crying and feeling uplifted, its one of those like slum dog millionaire that even though at times is sad, you can still leave feeling happy.<br /><br />Julia Roberts the star of the show, of course the epitome of the stereotypical fiercely independent strong American woman. She stars as Liz Gilbert, adapted from the memoir the book of the same title. The film sees her and her traveling around the globe after realising her year long marriage that she thought she wanted.. actually isn't what she wants anymore.. She jets off to Rome.. for the food... India to find God at an Ashram...and Bali where she finds Love. <br /><br />Being someone that's definitely into self betterment in a big way, having went through my own sort of "wake up call" at 19, and seeing that the world really is more than what we think... that for the most part WE are the creators. I loved and connected with the message of Liz going on her quest to find herself. Plus given the cast of Hot male characters.. and the fact that its cheesy.. but not overly so, it was always going to be a winner in my eyes. <br /><br />I also Loved the strong Feminist thread rolling through the film, that it is OK for a woman to be single and happy, and that she doesn't <strong>need</strong> a relationship to be happy. <br /><br />Yeah of course I'm biased though because its my type of film.. has anyone been to see it that didn't like it or was pleasantly surprised? leave a comment below....<br /><br />Talking of babes check out the new trailer for Charlie st. Cloud... Zac Effron, what a hunk!! mmm well that's one I'm looking forward to...lostedenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17235109478728854182noreply@blogger.com0